the deepest definition of youth is life as yet untouched by tragedy

i dunno wad's gotten into me this past week. wtf.

i've been feeling really down and acting really dao and bitchy sometimes.. i'm losing my friendliness and my smile.. it's horrible.. i dun even understand it myself.. something kinda trivial just triggered it and now here i am, sulking.

freakk.. i haven't been sleeping properly for the past 3 weeks.. somewhere around 4 hours of slp every nite. today i slept for 2 and a half.. i look like a bloody zombie.

maybe i'm just feeling really pessimistic and the mishaps of the past months have built up and gotten to me. you thinkk??

why do i alwaes put my faith in the wrong places.. wrong time.. wrong everything.. pisses me off siaa..

what's so annoying is that old mindset is back.. i called it anti-guy syndrome when i was 14 but now it's becoming more simple --> plain infuriation with that species. hmm. maybe i'm so pissed off at guys cos i dun appeal to any of them. or maybe i'm just blaming them for all my problems even if they have nothing to do with it... oh wells, why would i wanna waste my time on them aniwae right.. they're so unreliable. guys = assholes!!

i missed out on going out with wily & alan to have indomie as dinner. how broke can i get man?? oh and ivan.. thanks for everything. dun worri abt me..

this is probably the first time i've felt so anti-social instead of lonely when i'm unhappy. i know i'll definitely feel better after a while.. but i guess i am stuck wallowing in misery for the now. stupid mayuyi.

argh.. forget it i can't blog animore. i dun even understand it. dun wanna talk abt it alreadi.. i need some sleep.