the deepest definition of youth is life as yet untouched by tragedy

i just watched the late night telephone shopping on tv. i was really amazed by the winsor pilates soooo.... i ordered the video~!!! hope my sis and i can lose weight with it!!! yea~!!! new determination~!

HPL class today was my last class of the semester!!! omg.. feeling the pressure to study~!!

our HPL teacher invited us to have lunch with him and i din expect anyone to go.. but turned out abt 15 of us joined him.. was all right~ but ex tho.. 12 bucks for a beer battered fish and chips!! 2 guys from our class bought us all jugs of beer~ woah.. hahha i got a pot and u noe i dun really like beer.. took me a whole hour to drink 3/4 of my glass.. almost dieded. why couldn't they have the only drinkable beer, victoria bitter????? oh wells, we got to know a little more about the teacher. he's iranian, 29, he's got a phd, he speaks about 9 languages, he's got scholarships to france, italy and england, he travelled all around the world. altho he looks so scholarly, he's actually pretty cool~ he hates aussie beer and he likes aussie & english girls haha! funnie teacher~ and he kissed all the girls goodbye but when the guys wanted to give him a hug, he was like.. urhh nahhh.. *shake hands*

went shopping with my sis at bridge road afta that.. mi gosh.. we bought huge bagloads of clothes! ivan had an extra ticket to star wars III so my sis joined him and a few other ex-trinity people~ during that time i went home to grab my tickets for the crown arcade. we were supposed to feed the yellow tickets into the machine and it'll print out the number of tickets on a receipt and we use that to exchange for goodies. a dvd player is worth 9000 tickets man!!! i'm trying!!

i joined the queue for the ticket eater machine at first, waiting for like an eternity for this man to help his little son insert it all in. when i finally got my turn, i inserted like 53 tickets and it jammed, so i printed the receipt out and got the arcade guy to fix it. i joined the back of the queue again. it wasn't long before it was my turn. i had a plastic bag full of tickets and this little girl of abt 5 or 6 was waiting patiently behind me and helping me out when a ticket was twisted and stuff. then at 575 tickets the machine jammed again~!!! manx.. i was so pissed and printed out the receipt and called the guy to fix it again.. then i joined the back of the queue once again.

the little girl who was behind me earlier got her turn and happily fed in her arm's length worth of tickets. but the machine wasn't totally repaired and didn't count her tickets so she lost it all. alamaks.. she tried to complain to one of the staff over the counter. she looked so utterly disappointed and stood there with her hands on her hips gazing tiredly into space. really reminded me of my little cousin wendy. my heart started to melt man.. i felt so sorry for her. i was left with abt 20 more tickets so i decided to try again another day. and before i took the escalator to head home with my sis, i found myself tapping the girl's father on his arm and asked him to pass my receipt for 53 tickets to his daughter. 53 tix isn't all that much anyway. i hope she feels better now.. =]

drinking my sis's pork black tonic soup.. it is soooo BLACK. tastes so tonic-ky.. i feel healthy already! got work to do but too damn lazeee! hehe..

i watched malena scordia on sbs channel just now.. i watched it in spore before.. but the censorship's very lenient here so there were some extra scenes, particularly sex ones. i think it's a really touching movie and the leading actress monica bellucci is very talented and beautiful!!! watched a scandinavian film eyeball after that.. but it din make much sense to me. haha oh wells~

wily's so full of nonsense! everything that purges from his lips are LAME and i'm his major teasing target. it was hardcore after star wars. still i was a lil forgiving. but today he showed no sign of stopping.. that is it! i'm going to declare war! the S-I-L-E-N-T war.. make sure he regrets it man.. *cracks knuckles*

watched star wars episode 3 with the twins, wily and ashish.. the visual and sound effects were superb. but it wasn't an absolutely fantastic movie.. some scenes were a little boring.. the dialogue a little dull and woody.. but hey, they made 50 million bucks on the first day of its release alone.. they deserve a pat on the back for that at least~

other than the time spent watching the movie.. wily has been teasing me every five seconds abt a coupla guys. even during dinner at macs he could squeeze in a lot of random and lame comments even when he had his mouth full of mcflurry ice cream. mi gosh.. i just dun understand wad is so funni..

i'm just so tired of everything

.. feeling so irritated..

i'll get over it soon... i hope

time for a new song!!

got my HPL essay and Intro to Hollywood + Art Cinema library exercise today. i'm relieved i didn't fail. I got H3 and H1 respectively.. =] i hope i can continue like that! hehehe..

got to know more students during HPL breaktime, a grp of us sat down and tried to get the italian guy to speak chinese. it was pretty funnie. felt a bit like secondary sch classroom style. why issit u only start feelin comfortable to chat wit ur classmates after a number of months?? later i somehow started chatting with a melburnian guy walking away from the law building. i talked a lot of cock. but he seemed nice~ haha it's cool i can make small talk with fellow ang moh students now. big contrast from a few months ago~

jun lee & i hung around to do some sch stuff and we had char kuay tiaw together at the m'sian foodstall near the law buildin. it was cool.. we chatted from 4+ to abt 6pm. from a light blue to an almost pitch black sky. so funnie.. in trinity we were just "hi-hi" buddies.. and now we get to sit down and have a long girl chat. haha life's unpredictable ya?

met alan, wily and munesh at oporto in the foodcourt downstairs.. played at the arcade for a while (my arms & feet are tired from drums & ddr!!) and we had max brenner with my sis afterward. i love max brenner waffles!! now i have this huge temptation to make my own desserts tomorrow! fruit tarts, macademia nut + raspberry blondies, walnut muffins.. *YUM* can't wait!

this is ridiculous.. i slept at 11pm last night and woke up at 1am this morn.. i've been chatting for a coupla hours and watching the interpreter, desperate housewives and the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy till now~! they're all awesome!! =] great.. i just screwed my sleeping pattern.. k i so have to shower and head off for school now. buh-bye~!!

watched serial experiments: lain and spongebob squarepants at intro to hollywood + art cinema lecture today.. lain was abstract and psycho man.. nv wanna watch it again. sometimes japanese art can be really extreme.. some i can handle but some i try but can't! if u're into avant-garde it's probably your thing.. spongebob is a damn lame cartoon.. dun really understand why ppl like it. invader zim as well! omg.. kinda retarded..

had dinner with ivan at the qv foodcourt.. we shared a hot & spicy chicken pack. omg.. i just felt so full and unhealthy after that!!! when am i ever gonna shed those unwanted kilos?!?!

you know wad?? i just realised that my current good guy friends' names consist of four letters! alan, ivan, wily, weichan (a.k.a. andy)... wad a coincidence.. can u imagine.. all my good guy frens are *four-letter words*!!! okok... tt was lame & potentially offensive.. shan't extend the joke further.

woke up at 4pm today~!!!!!!!!! wahahhaa... shit man.. met wily after his work and alan to look for the rest of the twin's pressies. all the shops were closed and we were almost stressed out haha.. somehow we made it~ yea =]

when we met the twins and co, they were like waiting with this ang moh guy who was sitting on a bench and acting weird and puking.. he was in his middle to late teens and barefoot(?!).. turns out he took mushrooms and it really affected him and he asked the twins to get an ambulance for him.. the ambulance got lost but it came finally.. so hope he's fine now. so remember... don't fool around with drugs!!! experimenting with weed is not too bad.. but anything else.. NO!

the twins treated us to dinner at shanghai dumpling~ thankiew anthea & zoe!! the hot chicken noodle and the fried dumplings are good man~! went to the common room of adnan and alan's apartment after that and we played a drinking game. ivan got damn high hahahha... he just kept singing, dancing and laughing and making everyone laugh. i was really high too haha.. and thanks to wily i managed to get home. =]

that abt sums up my short day.. i realli need to get down to my work.. argh.. too mani distractions!!

heya~ i overslept!!! i woke up at 2pm!! and i missed my morning HPL class and was 20 min late for the 2.15 one!

went shopping with the twins and samantha for a girl outing. hehe

chicken parmigiana dinner at lygon with the guys alan, wily & ivan. yes yes.. wily and i are okay now.. well sorta okay.. cos i feel kinda uncomfortable.. still trying to adjust to it.

met magnus kor2 at max brenner after that.. haha haven't seen him in over 5 yrs man. he's still the same.. the cool, lively cousin. heheh.. din stay long tho cos i had to rush off to castle for jun lee's birthday party..

it was soso.. hardly any crowd cos exam period's nearing and amber lounge & next blue were having huge after-parties as well. i felt really extra cos everyone else were malaysians and they all studied in the same sch back home. but i met this aba (australian born asian) guy who was a friend of some of jun lee's guests. guess he felt extra too so he accompanied me to dance when i felt bored and had a good chat with me. he was quite decent.. at least more than all the guys i've met in clubs so far.. really open-minded but i guess we found each other too different.. hehe it's fine with me.. i was just there for jun lee~

trying to get to sleep.. but it ain't that easy anymore.. i think i'm getting insomniac like sylvia..

heya~ =] i realli reali realli realli realli need to get down to my reading!!!!!!!!!!!!!! freaking out for the exams... i need to be confident to do well so that when i go to japan with sylvia i have no regrets!!!

went with alan, wily & dexter to get part 1 of the twin's pressies and dinner.. after that dexter took me to this concert at the trinity chapel. it was for the apollo health music society.. there was the string orchestra, choir, piano duets and they consisted of mostly melb uni students. dexter's friend from last year's march intake was playing the violin.. it was cool~ haha i got to know two wonderful songs.. u gotta check it out!! one's a matrix soundtrack called clubbed to death by rob dougan and the other is an upbeat classical called palladio by karl jenkins. yeapyeapsz =]

I'm currently halfway through this Japanese mystery VCD series featuring Eguchi Yousuke. Check it out~ It's called Toubousha (Escapee). Really good. Just keeps you on your toes guessing all the way. The filiming is modern and exciting. And it's abt 7 discs with 1 hour each. Not too long like the Korean ones which just give you eyebags from watching them addictively dawn till dusk and you still won't be halfway through. Hahaha~ My DVD player broke down. Dang... So my sis and I, we gotta crowd around our laptop and we keep elbowing each other away.

Last Thursday I went for Anthea's play. Got a few of the cast members flowers (African daisies I think). It was between good and great. Well thought out. Acting was much more professional than Trinity College drama exams. =] Bit too deep though. On Friday I went to watch this year's Trinity students at their annual Big Noise event with Florence, Ivan, Kenneth and Wen yang. Pretty cool. Percussion Brazil-like band again getting everyone to dance. Had an alumni dinner right after that as well. Ivan and I were stuck to the tables munching on all the finger food. Heavenly! Mini Quiche Lorraine.. Beef pie.. Mini Chicken Sandwich.. Nachos.. Sticks of cucumber, carrot and capsicum with an array of patee! Yum yum. Haha.. really miss Trinity a helluva lot.

You know something? I'm getting pretty good at the loner thing. I haven't gone to lunch with the usual people for a coupla weeks now. Been eating at home or my sis makes lunchboxes for me. I'm hoping to get down to my subject reading more diligently.. but I'm kinda getting there. =] I don't feel that lonely. I got my sis at home, class people to chat with, time alone for myself. The only one I still hang out with sometimes is Ivan. Good to have him to head home after class with on the tram cos he doesn't mind listening to my rubbish.

There isn't much to add.. An annoying looming mental monster is waiting for me with assignment deadlines and exam revision. I haven't touched any of my readings and I'm supposed to read them from cover to cover. *sighs*

OMG I just realised. I typed my whole post in proper capitalisation!! WTH! This is so weird..

finally~!! hehe i've changed my layout to something more suitable of my mood. =] and it's all my own design~!! it's not totally done yet but i kinda like it.. this pic i took in tokyo of the little garden in front of my grandma's hse. as u can see it was wild with weeds and my sis who loves gardening so much pulled all of them out. really fertile soil man. kinda reminds me of my late grandma. for everything else i used adobe illustrater and some html knowledge and there u go~! =] okok my sis is making me go out with her now~! see ya later~!

i'm not feeling that depressed. i'm not that happy either. probably just neutral.. there isn't much i look forward to in life and the things that i do. i just wish that i'll find more meaning in my life one day. hope that day will come sooner than later. this thing called 'life' is just not clearly explained enough for anyone.

it sucks to lose a friend u thot would be around all the time. but i'd like to stand by my policy "i don't care for pple who don't care abt me". i don't care even if things get complicated further. i thought i finally found a gang that i could fit in after a whole year of receiving flak from all sorts of cliques. but now i think i'm back to square one.. i shan't think abt it. what's wrong with being alone? there isn't a right or wrong way to have a social life.. there'll always be someone to interact with somehow if u really want to.

i'm probably homesick and feeling nostalgic abt the times i had in sngs. well i'm starting to think i mite be living too much in the past cos distance and time do make pple drift apart no matter what and it just will never be the same again. i can't expect too much. i'm not complaining. i'm just trying to accept it.

tried clubbing on friday to cheer myself up. umm.. music and atmosphere was great. r'n'b, mambo and trance. lasers. mist. particularly enjoyed myself at trance cos it felt like a new culture with all the ravers with their big loud costumes and i learned a little by watching them "shuffle".

somehow i just felt like clubbing was getting kinda meaningless. pple get too wild. guys examine the girls and try hard to find ways to touch or coax them into false situations of intimacy. just what the hell is wrong with plain dancing and enjoying it? i was super irritated with having all the ji kor pehs rubbing themselves against me that i didn't care if i got into trouble or not but i just shoved them off with all my might and screamed into their ears. and no i wasn't high at all. it's not just the old ji kor pehs.. even the younger guys that u think are all right.. they just can't control themselves. ahh forget it. i'm turning into a cynic. i can't believe i'm saying this.. but i think clubbing just isn't my thing no more.