the deepest definition of youth is life as yet untouched by tragedy

oohh.. last night alan & i got bounced out of ffour where my sis's frens were having their birthday parties.. stupid bouncer looked at all my frens' and my id with so much detail and just din let us in.. like wad the hell!!  i wasn't gonna allow tt to ruin my night so i got alan to go to chicane lounge with me~! din even get checked man~ it was chicane's opening night and it was not bad~ looked a lot like the loft~ hehe~ they even had two beds on the upper floor man. like. urh~ oookaeee.. met wynnie there and turned out tt it was her bdae~! she looks more and more guy-ish now man~! hahaha.. looks good~ alan danced too even with his arm like dat~! he & i left super early cos had sch the nex dae.. like 1am and johann kor2 sent us home~

today i woke up at 7.45am for my 8.45 class but i slept in again till 11!!! so i instead watched the charlie's angels:full throttle dvd i rented frm sch... dressed kinda tomboy-ish today with baggy pants and baggy jackets~ and the left side of my hair was quite spiky cos i din comb it! haha.. it was pretty embarrassing cos a lot of pple commented or teased me abt it but by the end of the day i cudn't be bothered! watched my sch's theatresports finals and several of my frens took part~ the saints were the champions~! haha.. good on them cmc girls~ they're quite witty! second was roger's rabbits and third was blame it on russell~ best player was azri and i loved his puss in boots stunt~ haha.. andre & ken were damn funnie too.. oh and this hongkong guy ryan i think was damnnn funnie!! he was soo ON~ actualli i think everyone was funni la.. i laughed mi head off! okae.. the guys went off for dinner at kunming so i followed them to la trobe st where i cud walk home~ oh man.. seriously.. hanging out with so mani guys is a little intimidating!! i oughta look for girls to head home with~

fri: had formal dinner~  student committee was invited and 7 of us went! it started off with a mass in the sch chapel and then a 4-hour-long dinner at the dining hall! hehe.. wore a navy jacket with frilly blouse and scottish skirt~ all my friends looked realli good too~! actualli uploaded the pics to my feb intake #2 album alreadi so go and see!!! there were abt 200 pple present and they wore super formal.. they wore like black bowties with tux shirts & evening dresses and over that they all wore their graduation gown~ so grand! and i sat next to a neurologist who was realli nice to me~! each time i looked quiet he would talk to me abt everything~ he's a cool dude! and his wife was realli lively and humourous too~! made andre laugh a few times~ and food was damn good! the entree was a small bunch of noodles stuck together with crab or lobster on top with some nice gravy surrounding it~ main was beef & lamb with risotto topped with mushrooms soaked in realli expensive truffle sauce~! dessert was super nice too~! a choc tart in some kinda jam, wattle cream (the best!) and some custardy ice cream~! *smacks lips* i have no idea how the westerners can take such a long time to finish the meal.. i mean.. the choir was very beautiful and i wud pay a generous amt to watch them in concert but they din have to sing for such long intervals between each course! kenneth, andre and i cudn't take it and went outside for fresh air once and took so mani lame photos~! later florence joined in too! hehe.. quite fun ah~ at dessert i sae next to a french-vietnamese lady who was realli sweet to me~ and altho she knew i was underaged she made mi drink port wine (40%)! oh wells.. port is good! an elderly lady at my table had a seizure and she shook so violently until she fainted.. luckily there were quite a lot of doctors among the guests mannn.. i hope she's all right.. managed to leave at 1++am to meet mi mum and walk home!

sat: oh mann i woke up at 5.30am and was like making sure i had all the stuff i needed for my ski trip at 7am and had a nice breakfast eating rice-cakes~ then i remembered tt my street had no tram on saturdays!!!! it was like.. WAD THE HELL!!! and i ran down towards swanston with my luggage in tow.. managed to get a taxi and got to the tour bus at a little afta 7am! felt kinda bad for holding the bus up~ there was onli one seat left on the bus so i sat with porky~ haha.. he was all right~ made lotsa corny jokes and slept a lot~!

reached mt. buller 3 hours later it was -5 degrees Celsius and it was super cold~ took me an hour to stand up but once i did it, it was smooth-sailing all the way~ i just need to polish mi directional skills~ but the falling snow was terrible.. the strong wind blew the hard snow onto our faces and it felt like micro-knives trying to cut our faces!!! wrapped things up at abt 5 and went back to our accomodation but took 2 hours cos 5 students were sorta lost on a different shuttle bus. alamakss.. poor people! ! so i sat there in my very wet clothes shivering like siao! ohh.. and onli then i discovered tt mi poor cousin alan fell on his arm and injured himself so he got sent back to melb! i think i accidentally leant my head on porky while sleepin and afta a while he woke me up and said "i can't support ur head" SO PAI SEH!!! luckily i was too sleepy to be pai seh man!!

once i got back i settled into mi cabin and changed!!! went for dinner a bit too late.. it was chinese take-out.. and i'm realli sorri but it wasn't good. the gravy was too thick but i was so hungry so by the time i got there there was very little meat left and i ended up eatin a super load of veggies! hehe~ the cabin was like a tyre-less caravan with a kitchen, a triple-decker bed and a bathroom~ my assigned roommates ran off to their frens' cabins but my cabin was nex to my girl frens so i was okae abt having the whole place to myself... but at midnight 2 student services staff (nick & evelyn) came by and bunked with mi cos their place had no electricity~ hehe slept on the big bed with evelyn. hope i din snore too loudly~

sun: woke up at 6.30am.. my phone alarm was so loud tt nick and evelyn woke up straight awae~ hehehe.. tt's a good thing~! packed up and had a huge breakfast for another day in the snow!!! got to mt. buller again to go tobogganing.. it's like sledding on a piece of plastic and rope~! realli fun man~! ==3 went with a whole bunch of ppl and had a huge snowball fight changing targets every now and then~! even i was not spared~!! had a delicious pizza lunch and soon it was time to go back to the bus.. luckily i wasn't as wet this time and i went back all warm and comfy~! went to shumei's place to shower and we had dinner on lygon with nick, evelyn & wai hong~ =] nick was cool enuff to send shumei & me home~ hehe

mon: just got home and i just wanna thank mi sis and mum for takin me to a nice italian dinner on lygon st for my advanced bdae dinner cos mi mum was leaving soon~! i had very nice lamb shanks and garlic bread~!!!! hehehe! visited alan at his apartment before dinner.. he can hardly move his left arm!!! oh mannnnn.. oh wells i gtg now.. ciaos~!

oh my haven't updated since sunday~ been going abt sch as usual.. one whole world of polite socialising. but i'm getting used to it.. i like the advantages of going abt mi duties alone. no need to worry abt my social status. be others' walking partner in between classes. get to noe as mani ppl as possible. i've learnt not to rush into anithing just cos i thought i must have friends asap and it's taken a load off mi shoulders. pple are just gonna have their own perception of you.. and u can't just change it with a click of ur fingers. =] OMG why am i suddenly so cliche? shut up mayuyi! but seriously.. i'm happi with mi life now.. people at least notice mi existence and greet mi cheerfully instead of mi doing it last time~

today i had fair dinkum for the july intake during lunchtime~! haha.. fun fun~ it's like a cca fair.. getting pple to join ur society or club. the music section was so pathetic! broke awae from the student committee to do the drum booth. seriously man looks like a haunted corner? i ended up helping the guitar, piano and violin grp get pple to sign up. like wadeva~ if it wasn't for mi there'd be no sign up sheet for anione to fill in and no one would join those clubs.. BLEAHS.. okae fine i'm just crapping. oh yarh july intake got so little pple.. but i finally found a few cute guys! and nice-lookin noisy girls! haha.. yea~ free food this time.. got so mani chicken sausages and hamburger.. and i had shumei to accompany me.. omg.. when i'm around this noisy girl i'm alwaes high!!! *feminine* i hope she gets to noe her cute july guy~ if not.. i'll just have to make a "fateful" situation for her~

hehe.. tml i got a busy day!! 9 to 5.15 and got a formal dinner afta tt. see ya sistaz!! enjoy the pic i played around with~

i'm sucha slackarrr~! woke up at 1++pm todae.. sighszx.. afta this i betta read up on my psych and hoi!! aniwaeszx.. yesterdae i met up with stephanus, florence, andre & kenneth to go sponsor-hunting for our annual ball~ it was fun but i kinda got a little worn out after 3 hours! had a few rejections and "i'll think about it"s but i guess tt's part of society~ at least the hair warehouse manager said she'll do something~ one's betta than nothing!! =] oh.. andre & kenneth were late and we went to meet them at the chinatown arcade. florence wanted to surprise them so she started running from behind.. and i thot wad the hell and i started running too! the thing was.. my ugg boots were so damn slippery tt i slid and fell on my BUTT! and florence was right in front of mi and she fell and sat on mi!!! OMG!!! how terribly EMBARRASING is that?! stephanus & andre just stared open-mouthed and laughed like siao!!! ARGHHHHHHHHH!!! idiots! my left butt cheek's been hurting until now!! hmph!

afta tt i lazed around at home watching japanese videos wit mi mum~ she came wit mi to crown casino whilst i went to the club next blue~ oh maan.. like so mani of mi schmates were there!!! jaya & mulia came too!! i was quite excited cos i nv expected them to even want to come but it was such a disappointment when mulia got bounced out cos he was dressed too casual.. well it was onli his skate sneakers!!! wad was the bouncer's problem? hmmmm.. there's alwaes next time i suppose.. but their trip was realli wasted man.. they came all the way from chapel street! oh wells.. my usual clubbing frens (jennifer, xiaoyun, pei ni, yenteng, rachel & christina) came and christina brought her fren from perth. nice guy, tt dude.. he can realli dance~ =] met the others later on.. lemme list 'em down cos it's quite exciting~ ann, lee ren, gabriel, kevin mah, joanne, randy(!?), ating, melissa, rachelle, adelene, sabrina,edric(?!), joel(?!), siok hui, chip, makram... still got some more! hehe.. it's like a trinity event.. ok maebe i'm exaggerating it! but it was realli fun all the same~ this time i wore my new outfit frm japan~! this black tube top which can be zipped onto matching pants~ kinda hard to explain but i like it~! hehe.. i wore my new pink rubber heels.. AND THEY KILLED ME so bad tt i had to rest between songs and i got especially worn out!!! my feet are still hurting!! dang it~! anyhow.. i'm makin this the last time i'm clubbing for this term and i got no regrets afta last night~ OH YARH!! i came home with my mum and while my mum was helping mi home (cos of mi shoes!) from the taxi.. some bozo(s) hurled oranges at us from at least 6 storeys up and there were these oranges exploding on the floor around us!! it was realli scari.. at first i screamed but i stopped miself cos it wud add to their satisfaction.. bastards!!!!! it's not funni.. it's DANGEROUS!!! at that height, if an orange had hit my head.. i probably wud be knocked out! ASSHOLES!!! i kinda have this fantasy of being some gansta and shooting the oranges before they hit the ground and then with super eyesight, shoot an orange in the offender's house to scare him/her! YES!!  *slap miself to reality* okaes.. m aebe not! AHH shit i gtg study!!!



FROZEN QUEEN/ KING
You dont want love to come through to you.
You like it the way you are. To be unreachable,
 no need to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say to yourself that
you dont need anyone, that you stand on your own two feet
or that you dont have time for these things. But in reality
you are scared to get hurt. You feel safe where you are: by yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You invent your own relationship in your dreams.You just need to know that you COULD get a partner. Thats it.

singapore - melbourne

thurs: arrived morn abt 1am.. went to watch mean girls at plaza sing with pei ni, rachel, amy and jennifer's friend. omg i soo love mean girls.. it's like so fedge!! yups.. after tt brought rachel along to meet melissa and yijun at far east's gelare~ hehe.. my~ have they grown prettier and thinner! rachel and yijun left earlier and mel and i met lynn before going for vocal lessons. willie lau from lightyears was teaching and stupid mel kept laughing at stuff he said.. evil mel!hahaa.. actualli i'm kinda guilty of tt too but mel's one is too obvious! chatted at coffee bean for a while and den zhao..

fri: went to cjc at 10am to meet mel.. she had a half-day cos it was youth day.. SO UNFAIR! but she intro-ed quite a few nice-looking girls to me so it's ok~ haha.. the school was freakin crowded!! even later on we all went to lido to watch mean girls (again but with yijun and mel's frens)the cinema was majorly cjc uniform! hehe.. mean girls was still funni even after watching it twice!!! fugly grotsky lil byatch! how'd they come up with all those funni words?? nothing better to do? afta tt a bit sian so hung around wisma.. met lynn for a while and then went home~ watched chinese kungfu movie until 3am but sis wasnt coming home still so i went to sleep!

saturday: mama and stella happened to be on the same flight! and my sis was at the airport picking stella up.. hahahah! think my mum was a bit sad abt it cos she kept repeating it to me even tho my sis suspected my mum was on tt flight. either way mum, stella and yurisan went to our place to hang around~ mel and lynn were busy with their acting lessons so i stayed at home the whole day until i caught a flu! dad arrived soon after and hung around at home with me.. then at 8pm finally went out.. to newton circus. ate so much but dun think the food was realli clean cos the whole family went to shit after tt. and my flu worsened and i got a fever and started having asthma.. it's weird.. i've nv had asthma till i came to spore from melb. cudn't breathe at all! let alone sleep!

sunday: managed to wake up at 9.30am.. felt better at abt 11 so i rushed to get ready and meet mel and val to watch spiderman 2 at cine.. oh man cudn't get a taxi and i was like 15 min late and we missed a little of the first part! felt so bad! but spiderman 2 was sooo cool!! i like tobey maguire!! he's such a great actor and all his movies are great too! esp when he tried to stop the train!! so scari man! i'm glad mary-jane ditched tt moon guy and ended up with peter parker!!! hehezx.. outside cine there was a competition for which clique of girls acted most like mean girls.. but they din look mean at all! just mini-skirt girls who looked realli sweet. there was this grp of realli wild-looking girls but they got 1st runner-up.. cos according to the judge.. u're supposed to look sweet but be mean inside.. like WADEVA.. went to far east to get mervyn's curly metal hairband and ate a pie for lunch at starbucks. afta tt mel & i went home with yurisan and her frens~ loaned mel my tankini top and denim swimming pants.. she looked so good! haha... went to play in the pool and sauna and steamroom~ played water volleyball too~! 3 on 3 with my sis and her frens! quite fun ah~ stella, henrietta and my sis acted quite spastic as usual~ hehe.. rushed to shower and got ready for my flight! miss ya mel! miss ya everybody!! hehe

monday: arrived at abt 5.30am.. didn't manage to sleep at all.. there were so much complications with my passport and the luggage conveyor belt so i got out at 6.45 but i still managed to catch a skybus~! pretended to be on hotel guest transfer so they'd drop me off and i cud walk a block to mi hse~ haha.. maybe cos i finally adapted to spore's hot weather after 2 weeks so when i came back to melb.. i was shivering in my own hse! first lesson was drama so din need to rack my brains so hard. i looked so dead i wondered how i cud act out little red riding hood:surreal theatre~ hahhaa...my grp's play was quite spastic but it was quite cute too~ afta tt... media lecture.. i kept nodding off but each time i woke up i voluntarily answered the lecturer's qns so i dun think he noticed. shared a plate of chinese food (rice+honey chicken+stir-fried vegs) with shumei for lunch cos both of us wanted to lose weight! hehe... yay! bought my frankenstein book to read during the free period before my lit class but cudn't go beyond a few pages cos i kept sleeping and drooling in the library for 3-minute intervals and this wei chan kept smiling smugly wheneva i woke up.. evil wei chan! tts why my grp got last for frankenstein quiz in lit tutorial.. bleaghs! afta sch walked wit ian and joel to my swanston tram stop and i searched for Centre for Adult Education (CAE) to enrol in a hiphop class but found out tt it was booked out.. WASTED! went to safeway to get some yogurt and fruits and eggs to fill up mi empty fridge! met so mani schmates there.. so pai seh cos my face is so listless and dao today... my dinner was so unhealthy lorh.. 2 packets of indomee with egg omelette.. but i ate lotsa strawberries!~ hehe.. yupyups!! my eyes cannot open alreadi and i wrote a lot of crap!! GOOD NIGHT! CANDY DREAMSZX!

japan trip
oops.. havent updated abt my japan trip properly.. oh well i suppose thats just me! aniwae i'll just skim through the highlights of the trip so far.

met my 27-yr-old uncle for dinner at this gyoza stadium where they have these popular gyoza(dumpling, qiao zi)shops all clustered together like a small town and we all had dinner at a very modern izakaya. ate sashimi, puffer fish blahhh.. the toilet was freakin cool tho! when u enter the cubicle, the toilet lid will automatically open and when u leave, it'll close. u can also control the speed and temperature of the bidet (water spray for women's privys) and after tt there is a warm dryer for ur wet butt.. COOL eh? the functions are a lil more complicated than the department stores' ones.i wanna steal it! hmmm... met my uncle again the nex dae for ra-men dinner.. BUONO! hehe then he brought my sis n i to a baseball batting machine place. cudnt even hit a single ball at the slowest 70km/h speed and u see all the salarymen doing 120km/h. upstairs they even had a tabletennis machine thing and a bazooka machine where u have to shoot all the numbers in a 4x4 board to form a bingo line.. damnnn cool!

visited my grandma's grave for the first time.. the place looks realli grand and nice~! it doesn't even look like a cemetery.. more like a expansive japanese hot spring inn. it's like near mt. fuji and all the family clans will put their ashes together. the greenery was very very well-maintained too! i hope she likes the place!

met all my mum's siblings families for a get-together. all my cousins except for reimon nii-chan were realli busy so they cudn't come...what a shame~ but it was still cool cos it was the first time i've seen this cousin since i was a baby and he seemed real nice.. even sang rap songs at the karaoke with me~! hehe.. he's a cool dude~

went to disney sea with my sis.. it was good! the musical shows were the best man!!! rides were all right.. not too exciting!

yeaps yeaps.. i noe i din do much in 10 days but it was mostly spent on my mom and grandma's shopping~ but it's all right.. wasnt tt annoyed cos i got to be closer to my grandma. =] yea~