the deepest definition of youth is life as yet untouched by tragedy

heya~ haha.. i'm in the law computer lab cos we juz had some computer session tutorial~ been spendin the past half hour telling like 15 pple who sat down at the computer nex to me that the login on computer doesn't work no matter how mani times u change the domain. and i just came up with an idea!! hehe.. i typed "THIS COMPUTER DOESN'T WORK" on the userid field. now all the pple just look at the screen and move on~ *phew* but i think the ones who sit down and settle themselves nicely and then look at the screen to find out it's not working must feel rather embarrassed~ wahahaha..k fine it's not funni..

i'm a lot happier now! at last after a coupla weeks of self-pity and self-hatred!! i think it was partly due to my irregular hormanal cycle or sth.. i just got my period 2 weeks ago.. and i feel betta after getting it a few days ago. tho i wasn't supposed to get it for at least another 2 weeks!! alamaksxz.. i've come to terms with myself as well~ i mean.. so what if i ain't that hot right? so wad if no guy is attracted to me~ so wad if tons of pple have a bad impression of me. haha.. i still have sylvia, lynn, mel, and val who care for me and i love them to bits! over here my cousin, ivan and a coupla friends kinda care for me as well! that's more than enough~ hehe

the only thing that bothers me now is that somehow i have a feeling that what i've done in the past two weeks in uni has subtly affected my friends and their attitudes. like we're not as close-knit anymore?? *sighs* i dunno la.. but what's done cannot be undone. i hope after all our assignments and tests, we can still have as much fun as we did again~!

okay la i betta discipline myself... friggin two 1,500-word research essays for law due on the same day!!! i have less than 2 weeks!! and i haven't bloody started!!!!